The Condition of a Broken Heart in the "Worst Club Ever"
It's been 105 days since my Dad's heart stopped before my eyes. I want to share with you, honestly and transparently about how I feel. I feel, tired. I am a strong person. I can manage myself in most situations as an alpha female. I can go to the gym, work, and do normal social things without interruption of negative or sad feelings. I have days where I get teary, but the grief wave swells feel like they are further apart each time they happen. However, there is something about grief that people don't really tell you, the condition of a truly broken heart and how it affects all the other parts of your nervous system. In my personal experience, when you lose a loved one––in my case, a parent––your heart breaks a few times on an ordinary day. When you think about a vacation, a song, a joke, talk to a friend, see a photo, think of a memory, etc. You can't escape a broken heart. I am early in my grief journey but I don't know that I'll ever escape it. How does